I don't know why but I have the urge to talk about love.
Like what people do when their in love, what do they say? How do they feel?
Well what about lust? Love is always an excuse for that. That its getting stupid and more stupid everytime someone uses it. Its very ridiculous.
There's always I love you. I really love you. I miss you. I miss you alot? Please do leave me. We will get married when we grow up. All kinds of bullshit.
And all those crappy pet name, baby, sweetheart, darling, honey, hubby, wifey, laogong, laopo, lambchop. Oh gosh when will the bullshit stop, seriously.
Yes, I do feel cruel and sadistic now but it makes me stronger some how, like when I recently meet a guy and he starts to sweet talk to me I'll just start laughing cause his crap don't make my heart go boom boom
at all. Its just so funny.
Does love make you cry? Not tears of joy but when your heart aches, when you feel like stabbing yourself, committing suicide, murdering the girl who came in between your relationship.
I actually don't think so but if you don't cry then you're not in love right?
Cause then you wouldn't even care that much about the person right? Yes, I'm stating the obvious.
I guess me asking questions and answering them myself is making me less confuse about love and life but its still all messed up.
I think alot of things can make people cry like maybe, a falling star? The moon? I have no idea why people would cry about that but who knows, the world is a crazy place.
But one thing I've realise is that, everytime after a relationship I'll cry. ALOT. And the guy seem to move on extremely fast, like 3 days after the break up they'll move on to another girl?
Its amazing how they can have that "special" feeling so easily and fast when you're still stuck in bed soaking your pillow with tears and mucus.
And then theres always the get close to you scheme before they pop the question to you and of course one of them is talking to you on the phone every night, am I right?
And one of the topics that I would usually talk about with them is their relationships and I would say all the guys I've met move on very fast and one thing that I realise is that
all the guys that I've talked to on the phone about that subject would reply me, "Erm...Not all of the guys are like that cause I'm not", and there I am laughing my ass off cause its purely bullshit.
I guess all teenagers are almost the same well the symptoms of love is, coming online on hotmail and searching for you lover's contact, being excited to see if his online and if he is, you're just not sure if you should talk to him or not.
I guess me typing out everything is just the obvious but do we realise it? Or do we realise it only when we have our quiet time?
Love is just bullshit only when its between humans. And its all proven by us, I shall end here cause I'm sick and tired of the shit that is going on. I want to eat ice cream and smile till I stop crying my ass off.
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